Words fail miserably. To start with how can one emphasize, what basis, what table of my own experience to bring to compare to your experience. It doesnt exist. Here, even my imagination fails me.

Besides that my heart immediately goes out to you, hoping that in life you have found meaning enough to make it worthwhile. It appears as though you have, good for you!

Ever since being a youth, more starting in the sixties I've harbored a deep, persisting disgust, mistrust for politicians. Which is why to this day I almost cringe when I listen to the opposing arguments between dems and Republicans.

As far as I'm concerned they are all, (politicians) members of the same nefarious club. The political machine is the one place on earth where the darkest of the darkest can function , as thier anonymity and immunity are practically guaranteed!

Even on a more trivial basis, what other institution offers protection and complete immunity, a place above the law for when say a politician kills a child in a car wreck, in a foreign country?

Politicians control all authorities, police, investigative bodies, (with laughable exceptions). Right now as I write this to you the filthy rich (nothing wrong with being rich), Epstein in his New York castle with royalty from England doing exactly what you went through! And then when the curtain fell the man was silenced. so obvious that even an amateur sleuth figures it out.

It's the powers that be, the Real dark powers that be.

I'm so happy for you that you entered into the wonderful activity of Yoga and meditation. With some exceptions exposed in the news this seems to be an area mostly free of this depraved sort of humans, if they can be called this. Always wise to have eyes open...